Here's a few pics from the Halloween party we had. It was a Mad Tea Party theme and everyone had their own character from Alice In Wonderland. I was the Mad Hatter, as you'll see. We had all of the major characters from Alice In Wonderland and Through The Looking Glass. Including Alice, The Cheshire Cat, The March Hare, The Duchess, The Queen and King of Hearts, The Gryphon, the Mock Turtle, The Dormouse, The White Queen, The Catepillar, Tweedle Dee and Tweedle Dum, The Walrus and the Carpenter, the Red and White Knights, and more. So many amazing characters. It was SO much fun. The next night we went out to this street party downtown that had like 80,000 to 100,000 in attendance. I was just me, Caci(the March Hare, and Ash(the Cheshire Cat). We had SO many people pose with us for pictures and ask to take pictures of us, it was insane. And then some drunk lady thought I was Johnny Depp. The whole weekend was pretty fucking amazing. One of the best Halloweens I've had in the last five or ten years!

( You're terribly late, you know... )

Another fantastic party. Such good times with good people! One of the best set-ups, I think. We worked our asses off decorating and it came out pretty amazing. We even had a croquet match. Got lots of compliments on my outfit and hat(the one I made out of poster board and fabric and A LOT of patience, LOL) and my clothes were all things I had already owned. The most expensive thing in the whole outfit was a scarf I bought for $5. All together the whole thing probably ended up costing me maybe $10. Maybe. Pretty epic, I must say. We'll have to have another Mad Tea Party sometime soon that doesn't involve Halloween! Just for fun!

Tomorrow will be another awesome day. Probably more parties and meeting up with friends all over the city. It'll be pretty amazing I think. This whole weekend will be. One of the best I've had in a while! Next weekend we're off to Houston to see a concert and then the following weekend we'll see two more shows! Then I'll have to plan my trip to LA between them and Thanksgiving so hopefully we can have that meeting and get things settled for what will come next. Maybe I'll be out there soon after we bring in the new year! Fingers crossed!

Anyway, Happy Halloween everyone! Have fun and be safe! <33 I'll post pictures from the Mad Tea Party soon when I get them from the people who had their cameras! :)

I do have something to say for flawed friendships though. It's hilarious how different the sides of the stories are. Funny how some people demand a lot of attention from everyone around them while someone else can stay locked in a room for five days straight without seeing or talking to any of their friends. People are different. If we were all the same then it would be a weird fucking world. People have different views on what "friendship" should be. Also strange because often it doesn't match up but when it does you know you've found the good ones. It's sad that all people can't see it the same way, it really is. I'm not saying any particular way is the right way to see it either. It's just weird. People need to vent, people need to have a little space and distance, sometimes it gets unhealthy otherwise.

It also needs to stay realistic. It's confusing as hell sometimes too and I have to think of myself sometimes "Is it worth all of this?" A lot of times the answer is yes, sometimes it's maybe and not very often it's no. Life has all kinds of twists and turns for us. Some you choose to take and some you don't and when it happens sometimes it means having to distance yourself from people you love. It sucks but that's life. Doesn't mean you can't still love this person or maintain a friendship. Hell, my best friend since I was 3 lives in another state and has since I was 6. We hardly ever get a chance to talk, maybe five times a year, and we rarely get to actually see each other. Yet when we do meet us it's like we haven't missed a beat. I still love her as much now as I did when we met. Same thing with my friends here with me now.

One of my other best friends moved away for years and we barely had any contact but when she was getting married? I was asked to be the maid of honor. People don't move on and forget you, not the good ones. Distance may separate you and make things difficult, yes, but true friendship shines through. She ended up not getting married and moving back home and she's busy with her own life and her own job and we appreciate that. When we do see each other it's like coming home. It always feels amazing and I love that.

I have someone who lives across the country from me in Oregon who I talk to when I need help and guidance or when my feelings are hurt and I feel like I just need someone on my side for once. She gives me advice and pep talks and I really wish I could see her more. She offers light and calm to the darkness and lately I feel like I've been calling on her a lot more and I'll find a way to repay her for that someday.

I'm also lucky enough to have two(three if you count my mom) of my best friends around me most of the time. I consider myself very lucky for that. One's my sister and the other I met halfway through high school but it's like I've known her my whole life. She's helped me through some of the hardest times in my life, including other failing friendships, and I couldn't be more happy or proud to call her a best friend of mine.

They all have one thing in common. They understand me. And I understand them. They understand the way I work and likewise. Maybe it just has to do with the amount of time I've known them or maybe it's that thing I mentioned before. We just all have the same views on friendship. Friendship is not selfish. Friendship is loyalty and love and spontaneity and safe. That's what I feel with all of them.

I wish I had a magical fucking wand or something that I could wave and fix the friendships I don't want to lose but can't do anything for. There are outside elements, baggage from the past, secrets and back-stabbing. Lies and deceit. I know more than people assume I do about these things. Some people think they're being clever and sneaky and in reality they're about as transparent as a pane of glass. I'm not talking about anyone in particular, just people I've met and observed. It's all kind of funny when you think about it, really.

Anyway...time to close doors and open new ones. The future is yours to do what you will with but be damn sure those accompanying you on your journey know who you are.

Yeah, it's been long enough I think but that's okay because I have good news finally. Recently I've been looking for more work to broaden my client base so I can try to make something bigger or myself. So I sent out some e-mails to people on my contacts list-- some of you might know that I started working for 30 Seconds to Mars with their environmental awareness campaign, which was mostly based off Twitter. Anyway, I sent out e-mails and three minutes later I get an e-mail back from a girl named Emma. I didn't know until recently but it's Jared Leto's personal assistant. I mentioned in the letter that my sister, friend and I might be moving out to LA soon so my sister and I can attend a film making/screen writing school. Emma said that if I do move to LA that I should go work at this place called The Hive, which is the building that the band rented out on Melrose Ave. dedicated to their street teaming/online social networking/and a lot of other cool things. I asked if she was serious about the offer and she said yes she was and asked for me to go out there to meet with them. So I'm excited about that. The school, which I won't be able to do full time if I'm working for The Hive but I can still take classes there, is located in the back-lot studios at Universal Studios Hollywood.

So things are looking up again. Soon I'll have to make a quick trip out to Los Angeles to meet with Emma and The Hive. Hopefully after that I'll be making a more permanent trip out there as well. I've spoken with Jay and Lou and they say they both have my back as well and if I need anything at all, to just ask. Jay has some cool projects in the works that he said he would like to have me help with as well. I hope it all works out.

Will I be sad to leave Austin? Hell yes, I love this fucking place. It will always be home and I'll always come back to visit often. Will I miss everyone here, new friends and old? Definitely. Even failing friendships. Because no matter how flawed a friendship might be, that person still holds a big part of you. So in a way, yes I'm sad but this will be a good move for me. A good step in the right direction. I'll be out there with all of the people I know who are willing to help, I'll be able to go out with them to clubs and network and meet new people. My goal is to have a business that I can hire my good friends into and hopefully create a haven of creativity and love. That would be the best thing ever. Also, I want to take classes at that school so fucking bad. Hopefully I'll get the chance to do that as well.

Anyway, that's what's going on with me. I'll try not to be a stranger but I'm unfortunately I'm forgetful about things like this. We'll see. Hope you're all doing well. <3 XOXO

Here's the final routing/venue info for tour:

Jun 11 - Scout Bar @ Houston, Texas

Jun 12 - The Hangar @ New Orleans, Louisiana

Jun 13 - White Rabbit @ San Antonio, Texas

Jun 14 - Stafford Main Street @ Bryan, Texas

Jun 16 - The Glass House @ Pomona, California

Jun 17 - The Rock @ Tucson, Arizona

Jun 18 - Sunshine Theater @ Albuquerque, New Mexico

Jun 19 - The Marquee @ Tulsa, Oklahoma

Jun 20 - Pops Nite Club @ St. Louis, Missouri

Jun 21 - Miramar Theater @ Milwaukee, Wisconsin

Jun 22 - Skully’s Music Diner @ Columbus, Ohio

Jun 24 - Uncle Pleasants @ Louisville, Kentucky

Jun 25 - Headliners @ Toledo, Ohio

Jun 26 - Mr. Small’s Theater @ Milvale/Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

Jun 27 - The Town Ballroom @ Buffalo, New York

Jun 28 - Toad’s Place @ New Haven, Connecticut

June 29 - The Crazy Donkey @ Farmingdale/Long Island, New York

June 30 - Jaxx @ West Springfield, Virginia

July 1 - Fallout @ Richmond, Virginia

July 2 - Ground Zero @ Spartanburg, South Carolina

July 3 - The Club at Firestone @ Orlando, Florida


It's sneaking up on me. I'm stressing because my sister's graduation(I can't believe she's graduating!!!) is Saturday and her party that I'm helping set up is on the 6th. It's going to be a big deal too. I'm making a 25-30 minute video/slide show for her. If it comes out the way I want it to it's going to be pretty awesome. Problem is all of my connections for the camcorder to my laptop are MIA. None of the stores around here have them for some unknown reason. So I had to order it online and it won't be here until the 2nd(in theory). Yay for stress!

In other news..well, this is pretty much it. I'm getting ready for tour and making sure I've got what I need. I only have like five days between the party and the tour kick-off to get my shit together. Oy. But if I do good with this tour I might get to tour with them again in the fall. Can't say who'll be part of that tour yet but it'll be pretty amazing. Anyway, if you're going to be at any of these shows let me know! I wanna say hi. :)


XOXO
Lane

So I just found out that from June 12th to July 5th I'm going to be on tour with Julien-K and Combichrist. I'm traveling on the bus with them across the country, doing merch and video blogs each week. So come see me if I'm in your city. :P Now I have to get ready to live with five boys in a small confined space for a month. Oy.

So one of my best friends Amanda, so_pseudogoth, and her friend Stacie came down here to visit on Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Amanda needed to take more photos for her photography portfolio so we have an random photo shoot. We planned it on Thursday, to do a sort of post-apocalyptic theme. There are TONS of pictures and I was only able to resize some of them today. They came out pretty neat. It was supposed to follow a story line. The apocalypse comes and goes and there's a band of rebels left behind. I was supposed to be trapped and found, dead, retrieved and then put into some make-shift lab where they brought me back to life and gave me this wolf mask to be part of an army they were building. We shot here at my family's property, at an abandoned car wash, and at my grandparent's barn. Oh, and my burned up car. I only uploaded some of them to show the storyline a little because I couldn't possibly post all of them, I just wanted to show off Manda's work.

( Would you survive? )

Other than that, I'm actually starting to work really hard because JK's album's on the horizon now. Feb 17th/March 10th. They hired a marketing guy who I have to work with really closely now and it's a little awkward still. I'm still trying to get out of my loft lease. I have to find someone to take it over before the end of January. Ugh. I'm going to make myself sick with stress over this shit. I hate it.

I have to apologize to lowlyandunholy and Meowy for not being around to work on our stories. It's a really crazy time for me right now and my mind's always in a thousand different places. I'm going to try to buckle down more this week and concentrate. I need to keep myself busy with this stuff, do something to get my mind off the bullshit. So, sorry! Love you guys.

I'm going to be stuck online A LOT now until March doing this stuff for Julien-K so I'll have time for that sort of stuff. I need things to keep me busy during my down time!

And right now I'm super thirsty so I'm gonna go grab a drink. Cheers, loves.

So I went a saw the Hulk today. Had to get The Happening out of my system, because seriously, WTF. The Hulk was pretty good and I like Edward Norton so, yay for that! Last night Caci and Taylor and Alex rented a movie called Santa's Slay. Yes. IMDB.com that shit. It was like Leprechaun in Da Hood. It was so well filmed that I couldn't even hate it, which pissed me off a lot.

OH! Dude. I saw the X-Files preview for the new movie. Twice. On the big screen. -gigantic nerd boner- I just sat there clinging to my pink lemonade with huge eyes, in total aw. Another X-Files marathon tonight!

This has been a good week so far, I suppose. I've been throwing meet and greets together for Julien-K's tour like crazy and I turned in the lists this morning for the first three shows. Today's the first show, actually. In Manda's favorite state ever. -thumbs up-

There's a hold on my check, which was fucking late as it was, so I've been pretty much broke since the beginning of June. The money won't go into my account until the 23rd, so fuck banks, I've decided. As soon as it goes through I'm going shopping at pawn shops for a guitar. Caci's getting on to me about it. I need to start playing again. I keep getting fortune's in cookies that say "Killing time murders opportunities" and shit like that. Ash's friend at work, Ray, is a total guitar genius. He's this crazy old guy with long gray hair with a beard and he and his wife play gypsy guitar music. Like, they seriously take out a fake campfire when they play in these places around town (which are so much fun to go to) and plug it in and wrap different colored scarves around the base of it and play. It's so amazing. Anyway, he offered to teach me a thing or two for free and told me he could make me into a guitar genius with only a 15 minute lesson each Wednesday. So hey, that's pretty amazing. There have just been a lot of things going on lately to inspire me so I figured why not? I'm going for it.

So I found my camera again yesterday and we were playing around with it. Results are under the cut, along with a precious new picture of Murphy.

( We found out you used to be a dog-faced boy.. )

Murphy's out of control and running in circles at the moment. So I need to go calm him down. Toodles.